So I’m officially one of ‘those people.’ And I know this is going to make some of you think differently of me and possibly mock me openly (Sarah and Bobby, I’m looking at you) but I have a confession to make and gosh darn it, a fear public taunting isn’t going to keep me from it: I joined my high school 10 year reunion committee. Is that totally weird or what?
I wasn’t completely thrilled with high school when I was there. I had a large graduating class (749, if I remember correctly) and though I wouldn’t consider myself ‘unpopular’, I definitely wasn’t one of the stars of the school who everyone liked or hated. I was kind of a floater. I had my friends and my activities, but otherwise pretty much kept to myself. I loved dance and my favorite memories of high school are of after school rehearsals and concerts, but other than that, I could have pretty much taken or left high school in general. It was boring, I was somewhat insecure, I didn’t have control over my life yet. It was a difficult time for me, like it is for pretty much everyone.
Obviously, I think of myself as a completely different person now. I am not shy to any degree and am proud of what I have accomplished in my adult life so far. I’m happy, and beyond that, content with who I am. So looking back, I wonder how different the people I knew then are now. I wonder if we would still be friends if we haven’t lost touch, and if I would be friends now with people I wouldn’t have back then.
So, when a girl I went to high school with emailed me last night for my contact information and to see if I would be interested in being on the committee, I said yes. I thought it would be fun to be in the mix and get a chance to see people who I haven’t seen in years again. And, well, I’m a joiner. I like to be involved. What can I say?
But, when I got the list of people who are also on the committee, it kind of set me back a bit. Some of the people I used to know well, but literally haven’t spoken to in 10 years, and others were in different social circles, cheerleaders or band geeks. I got a rush of the old high school insecurity and had the urge to email and cancel. It was only a tiny rush, though, and I’m over it. I’m back to excited. I’m a different person and I’m sure they are, too.
It’s going to be fun, right?